Title: Chaos with a Smile

Gender: Female

Age: 24

Sun Sign: Leo

Chinese Sign: Wood Ox

Location: Fredericton

Alrighty. I'm awful at writing these “About Me” boxes for one. The ability to stare at a small white rectangle on my computer screen and all of a sudden conjure all the perfect adjectives to describe myself in the bat of an eye is a skill that sadly eludes me. I'm sure a psychologist could gather lots out of that line (I'm sure they'd also gather lots if I left it empty or typed in total gobbledygook too, they're good like that) but for the rest of you, I'll take a stab at it either way, because I signed up for this site full aware that I'd have to do this Intro thing all over again.

I'm 50% serious, intense, contemplative and philosophical, increasingly a pseudo-hippy and writer who is constantly seeking personal growth, enlightment, and to learn and do EVERYTHING.

The other 50% is fun loving, goofy, adventurous, easily amused by words such as 'gobbledygook', loves bubblewrap, and has a childlike appreciation for the little things in life. I am all around ambitious, and hold a deep love for my family, friends, and boyfriend.

Other than the oh so interesting 'deep stuff', I'm an daydreamy, easily distracted, obsessive-compulsive, unintentionally girly tomboy, body-mod obsessed, closet-case geek with a tendency towards sarcasm.

Those are the fun parts of my personality. But..I'm also restless, starving for intellectual, creative, spiritual stimulation. Dragging old battle scars around like a wounded animal and looking for a safe place to curl up and fully heal. Reaching out blindly and looking for people, real raw, searching, thinking, loving people, who feel the ache, the need to do something too.

Currently I'm shuffling my toe in the dirt like the new kid at the playground who's lost, friendless, and doesn't know the rules of the scene yet when it comes to community involvement. I desperately want to do something; it frustrates me that I feel useless to the world at large, that I'm not out there changing myself, my surroundings, fighting, that apathy swallows up so much of my time in its endless maw.

My goal here is to heal and cleanse myself,  while learning to heal others. To expand, to cry, to laugh, to meet, to help, to be humbled, exhilarated, love and be loved.

Member Since: Friday, April 13 2007

Last Visit: 228 days ago.

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